SuCk on My OWn FeeLIng

I feel empty right now actually. Not in a bad way.
I failed. I can’t find what’s bothering me.
Okay fine, I do actually.
I am feeling scared and insecure.
Never in my life have I get so paranoid about this.
No, I don’t do normality, coincidences, usual and routines.
I am unpredictable, unexplainable, describable and unexpected.
I wish you could see that. Like you did before.

For one thing I believe is that being happy with yourself I guess.
It is by nature. You know that scrumptious feeling you get,
you feel good when you're looking yourself in the mirror. Happy by nature I assume.
Picturing what you've accomplished, appreciating your surroundings.
For what i believe is that, be more concerned with your character than your reputation,
because your character is what you really are,
while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
Come to think of it, when it comes to our society here, reputation is what we need I guess.
Getting a job, what your neighbors think of you, gaining respect from others.

Today I learned that not everyone is trying to hurt me,
and that I need to be thankful for the people I have in my life.
I love every one of my friends. Even how obnoxious, unthankful, idiotic they can be.

LOVE

But love, I’ve come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime.
Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in things we do for each other everyday.

I have to remember, "you only get to touch a handful of souls in your lifetime.
Know them well and make sure they remember you".