SuCk on My OWn FeeLIng

I feel empty right now actually. Not in a bad way.
I failed. I can’t find what’s bothering me.
Okay fine, I do actually.
I am feeling scared and insecure.
Never in my life have I get so paranoid about this.
No, I don’t do normality, coincidences, usual and routines.
I am unpredictable, unexplainable, describable and unexpected.
I wish you could see that. Like you did before.

For one thing I believe is that being happy with yourself I guess.
It is by nature. You know that scrumptious feeling you get,
you feel good when you're looking yourself in the mirror. Happy by nature I assume.
Picturing what you've accomplished, appreciating your surroundings.
For what i believe is that, be more concerned with your character than your reputation,
because your character is what you really are,
while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
Come to think of it, when it comes to our society here, reputation is what we need I guess.
Getting a job, what your neighbors think of you, gaining respect from others.

Today I learned that not everyone is trying to hurt me,
and that I need to be thankful for the people I have in my life.
I love every one of my friends. Even how obnoxious, unthankful, idiotic they can be.

LOVE

But love, I’ve come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime.
Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in things we do for each other everyday.

I have to remember, "you only get to touch a handful of souls in your lifetime.
Know them well and make sure they remember you".

Beta Nak Umum kAn PerLu Kew CinTA + DeClare??

Mengikut pengalaman beta, Cinta memang tak perlu sebarang deklarasi. Cinta yang perlu deklarasi adalah cinta monyet. Jadi khadam khadam sekalian harus tahu mana satu cinta monyet dan mane satu cinta ungkap. Ops.. Maafkan beta.

Macam nie lah mudah. Dulu, ketika zaman beta muda rumaje (msih mude rumaje bergetah) macam kehidupan khadam khadam semua sekarang, beta pun mengalami sindrom ini iaitu cinta perlu deklarasi atau tidak. Alkisahnya… Nak tekel org, memang la tak tertekel. Sebab beta mahal.. Jadi barang mahal haruslah direbut2 oleh terune2 shaja. Haha...2 alam nih nauzubillah beta mmg 'gay' tapi beta bkn homo..

Sementelah itu, bila ditekel teruna jantans (ingat ini zaman remaja dan sangat sangat naive dan inesen)… maka berjiwang berbunga lara sakan lah beta. Dari zaman perut boyot tembam skang perut dah slim shadyy...nih benar melainkan benar shj. Maklum la, zaman bercinta haruslah penampilan mantap walau dibelakang si dia macam hantu jerangkung. Haha...Its time for make over.

Tapi satu je yang musykil, walau kita orang tahu kita orang bercinta tapi orang luar macam mana! Yea beta bercakap tentang orang luar yang merangkumi jiran tetangga yang bz body apetah lagi pesaing-pesaing yang ingin mencurah hati kepada beta. Maka persoalan diraja pon berlaku...

Jejaka: Sayang sayang, nak declare tak?
Beta: Declare? Xpayah. Yang penting hati you i punya.
Jejaka: Okie, luv u.
Beta: Luv u mwah2x.

Maka itu bukan lah cinta monyet. Nyeh nyeh nyeh. Cinta monyet berlaku apabila cinta itu diselubungi populariti dan ingin merasakan apekah itu bercinta. Maka dicanangnya satu malaya termasuk kepulauan batam yang mereka mereka ini sedang bercinta.

Tapi selalunye bila nyet bercinta memang tak kekal lama. Habis pisang kulit dibuang. Habis betik, biji sudah tidak berguna. Ops, double meaning? Ini kumpulan sepah punya pasal la nie. Tak burung mesti mayat! Haha.

Jadi tunasnya disini, bercinta tak perlu deklarasi. Bila anda sudah matang, soal ini tidak akan timbul. Penangan ini beta sudah terima! Yea. Kenaifan seorang lelaki akan terserlah bila beliau berkapel dengan seorang perempuan yang matang. Tapi org perempuan akan merasa bodoh bile berkapel ngn lelaki yg xmatang. Kalau pra matang memang jadi stok nyet lagi la. Tak caye cuba. Anda akan merasa anda bodoh dan bingai, tapi itu pengalaman bruder. Kalau jatuh kita bangkit. Daa.

ps: dialog diatas rekaan semata mata.
pss: cerita diatas berdasarkan pengalaman, tapi cam biasa beta spin sesuka hati. haha. arios

ReSUme REfEREnCE

Name: AkieYna
Age: Still young
Sex: Never. Still under age..HAHA
Religion: ofCoz u Knoe
Race: I love to race, how you know?
Nationality: I don't like National, I prefer LG (tv brand la)
IC Number: 6735
Telephone number: House no telephone
Hand phone number: 3310
Address: Bangi,kajang,slenagor..anywhere can..
City: NurHaliza?
Postcode: I never post anything
State: In my family, I am 1st
Country: I love to travel to Italy
Marriage status: Secret
Email Address: Hotmail
Education Background: My teacher said not bad
Working experience: Last time got sell pirated VCD
Father's name: Daddy
Father's IC: You ask him
Mother's name: Mummy
Mother's IC: You ask her
Current Salary: Depends on my daddy mood
Expected Salary: As much as you can pay
When can start work: Depends on my mood
Highest qualification: Ya, very high
Grade: Ya, very high
College/University: Univercity
Signature: Can I use chop?

p/s: rasa cam nak try antar resume yg macam nih..leh x? agak2 leh dpt keje trus x?

Have you found your TRUE LOVE yet???

A successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing...

Here,

The most desired gift of love is not diamonds or roses or chocolate; it is focused attention. Love concentrates so intently on another person that you forget yourself at that moment. Attention says “I value you enough to give you my most precious asset-my time” whenever you give your time, you are making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of love.

You can give without loving but you can’t love without giving. Love means giving up, yielding my preferences, comfort, goals, security, money, energy or time for the benefit of someone else.

I know sometimes love comes with strings attached. It can be smothering, suffocating, controlling and needy. It can carry some all consuming fears if we have been hurt, betrayed, abandoned, rejected, or violated in the past. It can leave us rejecting the very idea of it's implications.

Relationship must have priority in your life above everything else because relationships are all what life is all about. Incidentally many underrate relationships when you hear them talking about finding time for our people, giving the impression that relationship are just a part of our lives along with many other tasks.

so appreciate for what you have now, or you may lose it with regret

How LoVe Can MAke U SiCK..

Love is a cycle. When you love you get hurt. When you get hurt, you hate.

When you hate, you try to forget. When you try to forget, you start missing.

And when you start missing, eventually you'll fall in love again.....

I'm scared to care to much, to miss too much, to feel that rush once more,

to love again at the risk of getting hurt.

But what I fear the most is the part of you leaving me,

when I've already conquered those fears for you.

Sayang.....

You asked me whose life is more important? Yours or mine. And I answered "mine".

You walked away angry- not knowing that you are my life..

Peterpan came one night and invited me to Neverland where I can never grow old.

I was about to go but I refused cause I thought of something better to do.

That is to grow old with you

If you were the one who’d hurt me, it wouldn’t really matter.

The truth is, you can slit my throat, and with my last breath,

I’d still apologize for bleeding on your shirt.

For you I can.